Tree of Life logoJULIE BANGSNURSING • WRITING • ADVOCACY • A BRAVER TOMORROW

PUBLICATIONS & SCHOLARSHIP

Writing at the intersection
of care, evidence, and
imagination.

Books representing fiction, nonfiction, textbooks, and nursing scholarship

Published works & projects

Nursing Scholarship

Academic writing, research, education, informatics, and advocacy.

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Explore my professional contributions, current research, and submitted work.

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Textbook

A future resource for psychiatric nursing education and practice.

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Details will be shared here as the textbook project develops.

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Fiction

Stories that explore resilience, connection, and the human experience.

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Nonfiction

Writing about healing, resilience, advocacy, and lived experience.

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Children and Spiritual Distress
By Julie Renee · First Edition, 2026 · Amazon publishing pending

AuDHD in Adulthood
By Julie Renee · First Edition, 2026 · Available on Amazon

Pulse in the Silence
By Julie Renee · First Edition, 2026

The Shadow Sisters Series — Book I
By Julie Renee · First Edition, 2026

The Shadow Sisters Series — Book II
By Julie Renee · First Edition, 2026

The Shadow Sisters Series — Book III
By Julie Renee · First Edition, 2026

The Shadow Sisters Series — Book IV
By Julie Renee · First Edition, 2026

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POETRY

Poetry Collections

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Still Here, Still Held

Poems for Mental Health, Grief, and Becoming

This book does not promise to fix you. It promises to sit beside you.

In Still Here, Still Held, poetry becomes a place to rest when the world demands too much. Written for those navigating neurodivergence, trauma, grief, and the quiet friction of mental health struggles, this collection offers a gentle space for what hurts.

From sleepless hours and complex recovery to the particular ache of losing a companion animal, a home, or a life you thought you would have, these pages hold your exhaustion and honor your resilience.

You don’t have to have it all figured out to belong here, and you never have to explain yourself to be welcome.

NURSING • RESEARCH • EDUCATION • ADVOCACY

Nursing Scholarship

Connecting clinical experience, thoughtful inquiry, and evidence to advance compassionate mental health care.

First peer-reviewed publication · 2009

Excimer laser debulking for percutaneous coronary intervention in left main coronary artery disease

Topaz O, Polkampally PR, Mohanty PK, Rizk M, Bangs J, Bernardo NL. Lasers in Medical Science. 2009;24:955–960. doi:10.1007/s10103-009-0650-y.

Although I was a new registered nurse, Dr. On Topaz recognized my curious mind and invited me to edit the manuscript and be part of the team. He encouraged me to keep asking questions and seek the knowledge to answer them. I remain grateful for his mentorship and for the opportunity to contribute to my first published article.

Professional Role

American Journal of Nursing (AJN)

Registered Author & Peer Reviewer

Engaging in nursing scholarship through author registration and peer review, with a commitment to clear communication, thoughtful appraisal, and evidence-informed practice.

September 2026–Present

Research

Psychedelic education pathways

A review of degree and certificate programs exploring how psychedelic education is structured, what programs teach, and how educational pathways relate to clinical preparation.

Manuscript in preparation for journal submission.

Conference invitation · 2026

International Conference on Mental Health & Psychiatry

November 19–20, 2026 in London, United Kingdom · Hybrid event

Invited to participate as a speaker or delegate. The proposed oral presentation introduces the Psychedelic Experience Registry (PER) as a participant-centered bridge between real-world psychedelic experiences, psychiatric safety, and community mental health care.

Invitation received · Oral-presentation abstract prepared September 2026

Conference submission · 2027

American Nursing Informatics Association (ANIA) 2027

March 11–13, 2027 in San Francisco, California

A speaker abstract submitted for the American Nursing Informatics Association (ANIA) 2027 conference, bringing nursing, information, and systems thinking into scholarly conversation.

Submitted September 2026. Acceptance pending.

Conference submission · 2027

Psychedelic Culture 2027: Beyond Consensus

March 12–13, 2027 in San Francisco, California

Presentation proposal exploring the development of the Psychedelic Experience Registry (PER) and its role in capturing psychedelic experiences.

Presentation submitted · September 2026

Conference submission · 2027

Psychedelic Science 2027 – MAPS

May 3–7, 2027 in Denver, Colorado

Presentation proposal exploring the Psychedelic Experience Registry (PER) and its focus on understanding experiences over time through nonclinical, longitudinal data collection.

Presentation submitted · September 2026

Conference submission · 2027

DPH 2027 – International Digital Public Health Conference

June 15–17, 2027 in London, United Kingdom

Developing a Participant-Centered Common Data Standard for Longitudinal Psychedelic Public Health Surveillance: The PER CDS presents a structured framework for balanced benefit-and-harm reporting, provenance, interoperability, ethical governance, and responsible development of AI-ready public-health datasets.

Fast Track submitted September 20, 2026 · Review pending

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Textbook

A future resource for psychiatric nursing education and practice. Details will be shared here as the textbook project develops.

Fiction

FICTION • SIX-BOOK TECHNO-THRILLER SERIES

The Deep Blue Horizon

This six-book techno-thriller series follows Dr. Cordelia “Lia” Merrick, a brilliant polymath with multiple elite degrees (physics, AI, robotics) and lethal survival skills taught by her legendary Navy SEAL father, Murdock “Poseidon” Merrick. Living a quiet life in Bonaire, Lia is dragged into a high-stakes global war against a shadowy syndicate operating out of Venezuela. Combining deep-sea diving science, advanced military robotics, and intense psychological tension, the series explores the thin line between justice and vengeance.

Sinking Blue

First Edition · 2026

Dr. Cordelia "Lia" Merrick lives a quiet life on Bonaire, engineering advanced marine AI by night and running dive trips for trauma survivors by day. She has built a perfect cage of solitude three hundred feet above the ocean floor.

Then the Navy calls. Her father, legendary SEAL Murdock Merrick, was killed in an underwater explosion off Venezuela. The official story is impossible, and Lia knows it. The fluid dynamics do not work. The cover-up is sloppy.

Grief takes her apart until a retired Canadian police officer shows up uninvited and forces her back into the water. But when a staged gear failure nearly kills him at seventy feet, Lia recognizes the signature of someone who knows exactly what they are doing.

Her father was murdered. The people who did it are still out there, moving product through the Cariaco Trench.

Lia has a secret underwater server farm, a network of hydro-acoustic sensors, and nothing left to lose. The cartel just made a noise in her ocean.

She will answer.

Black Water Current

First Edition · 2026

Dr. Cordelia "Lia" Merrick has spent two years tracking the rogue petro-syndicate that killed her father. Now she finally has a lead: a fortified transshipment hub in Willemstad, Curaçao, where stolen Venezuelan crude and cocaine flow through a single air-gapped terminal.

To reach the syndicate's true prize — the subterranean extraction hub Sector Delta-9, buried in the Cariaco Trench — Lia must first steal the blueprints. That means going where no satellite can see and no sonar can hear.

Operation False Safety: a deep sub-surface infiltration using custom rebreathers, diver propulsion vehicles, and bio-mimetic drones. Lia and her cell — the tech-savvy Echo, the demolitions expert Anvil, and the reckless but brilliant diver Gato — slip beneath the waves to clone the syndicate's most guarded secrets from inside a cooling water channel.

They escape. They celebrate. Then the Coral Network AI processes the stolen data and delivers a gut-shot: the accident that nearly killed their teammate Timmy was no accident. And the coordinates that led to Murdock Merrick's death were leaked by someone inside Lia's own team.

Now, with trust shattered and retaliation coming, Lia must decide who to save — and who to bury.

Pressure Gradient

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First Edition · 2026

The map is a kill box. The network is hunting them. And the weakest link is sitting right behind a steel door.

Hours after the Curaçao heist, Dr. Cordelia "Lia" Merrick and her crew are running completely blacked-out across the Caribbean, clinging to survival inside a 38-foot Fountain Lightning. But their stolen intelligence is already obsolete. Elena Rostova, the Red Falcon Syndicate’s ruthless cyber-commander, has detected the breach and shifted the entire Aegis-Grid, turning every frequency, coordinate, and safe corridor into a trap.

With experimental blue-laser optics failing and polymorphic malware eating their AI cluster from the inside, the crew is forced into a desperate run toward the treacherous waters of the Gulf of Paria. Every acoustic ping from Commander Valerius Vance's patrols tests the limits of their stealth technology, while inside the cargo hold's Faraday locker, Timmy’s ticking clock marks a betrayal no one saw coming.

As trust fractures and the digital walls cave in, Lia must push her technology—and her crew—to the absolute edge. In a world where one wrong frequency means a watery grave, the only way out is straight through the pressure gradient.

Pressure Gradient is a relentless techno-thriller of electronic warfare, underwater surveillance, and the kind of high-stakes survival that gets you killed when you're wrong.

The Bends of Justice

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First Edition · 2026

Dr. Cordelia 'Lia' Merrick knows the Red Falcon Syndicate killed her father. What she doesn't know is who helped them do it.

Operation Ghost-Siphon is her answer. A midnight infiltration of the Dragon's Maw Terminal, a floating fortress of laundered cash anchored in the Gulf of Paria. Lia and her team will swim through a sea-chest cooling pipe against hurricane-force suction, breach an air-gapped server room, and drain $420 million in encrypted ledger capital from the syndicate's financial spine.

The heist is flawless. The money is gone. But the cloned data files hold something she never expected: a biometric dossier labeled PROJECT POSEIDON: POST-MORTEM.

Inside it, a voice recording. Her teammate Timmy. Trading her father's Navy SEAL coordinates to syndicate director Elena Rostova. Bargaining with a killer to bury an internal affairs investigation into his own corruption.

The man who helped murder her father has been eating at her table, running her communications, and calling her friend for the entire operation.

Now he is locked in a Faraday isolation cell. Elena Rostova knows where they are. And Lia is about to discover that the real mission has only just begun.

Deep Blue Horizon: Cariaco Trench Warfare

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Dr. Cordelia 'Lia' Merrick thought she knew the shape of betrayal. Then Timmy—her father's protégé, her own trusted tech—turned her network inside out for the Red Falcon Syndicate.

Now Lia and her team are back on Bonaire, bleeding from that wound. Before they can stitch it shut, the Syndicate's mercenary arm, Escuadrón Negro, seizes the local donkey sanctuary. Twelve hostages. A twelve-hour ultimatum. And an electronic jamming blanket that turns the island into a dead zone.

Lia refuses to negotiate. Instead, she goes underground—through volcanic lava tubes older than the Syndicate itself—and takes back what was stolen.

But the real prize lies deeper. Thirteen hundred meters down in the anoxic black of the Cariaco Trench, the Syndicate is drilling through a geological nightmare to extract something they shouldn't have. Lia will pilot a one-person atmospheric diving suit into that toxic dark, evade automated crawlers and magnetic traps, and collapse the wellhead on top of their operation.

She's coming for the bunker on Chacachacare Island.

And she's bringing the abyss with her.

Deep Blue Horizon: Poseidon’s Wake

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The Red Falcon Syndicate runs the world from four thousand meters down.

Dr. Cordelia "Lia" Merrick and her partner Marcus let themselves be captured. It was the only way inside. Their disabled submersible sinks into the syndicate's subterranean staging terminal beneath the Cariaco Trench, and they walk into the lair of Director Elena Rostova—a woman who has never lost a game.

But Lia and Marcus are not playing to win. They are playing to burn it all down.

Before capture, their team planted a silver diagnostic bridge. Now, as Rostova tries to pry information from Lia's mind and buries Marcus in the lower vaults, a non-linear cognitive virus begins to spread through the syndicate's global data architecture. Automated defenses fail. The trench foundation groans. And in the chaos, Lia slips her restraints to reunite with Marcus in the distribution wells.

Their escape triggers a catastrophic chain reaction. Rostova chooses to drown in her collapsing gallery. Lia and Marcus launch an emergency dive pod into a hurricane. Above, their chase crew fights the storm to haul them aboard.

One flash memory array. One final upload. The syndicate's tracking grid dies forever—and Lia and Marcus step into a silent, analog dawn.

Poseidon’s Wake is a deep-sea thriller about trust, sacrifice, and the cost of cutting the cord.

More books in the series coming soon.

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Sanos y Salvos con Jaxon

Safe and Sound with Jaxon

A comforting tale of healing big emotions with a faithful four-legged friend

First Edition · 2026

When hard and scary moments arrive, the world can feel much too big, confusing, and heavy for little hearts. Children often wonder if they are to blame, carrying worries they were never meant to hold alone.

Enter Jaxon: a gentle, floppy-eared cocker spaniel and devoted psychiatric service dog who knows just how to help.

With a warm nuzzle and a steady paw, Jaxon guides young readers through stormy feelings, reminding them that difficult events are never their fault. Through soothing grounding techniques, gentle deep-breathing exercises, and cozy quiet moments, Jaxon shows children how to redirect overwhelming energy and find their calm center.

Safe and Sound with Jaxon is a tender, empowering picture book designed to help kids navigate trauma, anxiety, and big emotions. It offers a soft landing place where young minds learn practical coping skills and discover that they are always worthy of love, safety, and peace.

Inspired by the author’s real-life psychiatric service dog, Jaxon, an AKC American Cocker Spaniel.

Copyright © 2026 Julie-Renee.org™. All rights reserved.

Nonfiction

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The Book of Big Feelings

Navigating Meltdowns, Mindsets, and Emotional Resilience from Toddlerhood to the Tweens

First Edition · 2026 · Available on Amazon

Big emotions don't come with an instruction manual—until now.

From the explosive supermarket meltdown of a four-year-old to the slamming doors and icy silence of an overwhelmed ten-year-old, childhood emotional storms can leave even the most dedicated parents feeling exhausted and helpless. But behind every scream, tear, and shut-down nervous system lies a child struggling to process feelings they cannot yet name.

In The Book of Big Feelings, parenting specialist Julie Renee bridges science and everyday parenting across two essential developmental stages. First, explore foundational tools tailored for ages three to seven, learning sensory-based co-regulation techniques that diffuse tantrums before they erupt. Then, seamlessly transition into actionable strategies for ages eight to twelve, equipping preteens to navigate social pressure, internal anxiety, and self-doubt with real autonomy.

Filled with compassionate scripts, relatable real-life scenarios, and proven calming routines, this essential guide shifts family dynamics from reactive discipline to empathetic connection. Discover how to steady your own nervous system, build a lasting vocabulary of emotional literacy, and transform high-stress confrontations into foundational moments of mutual trust.

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Food = Mood

A Compassionate, Non-Diet Guide to Nourishing Your Brain and Stabilizing Emotional Well-Being

First Edition · 2026 · Available on Amazon

Wellness culture promised that the right superfood could cure your depression, while diet culture taught you to fear the very calories your brain needs to function. It is time to clear the noise and find relief.

In Food = Mood, Julie Renee offers an empowering, trauma-informed guide to understanding the profound link between daily nourishment and mental health—without rigid rules, shame, or cleanses. Rather than pretending nutrition is a standalone replacement for psychiatric care, this book provides a grounded roadmap for using meals as an accessible pillar of gentle emotional support alongside therapy and medication.

Learn how carbohydrates, fats, and proteins regulate your neurotransmitters and stabilize mood swings. Discover realistic feeding strategies for your lowest days when executive function is wiped out, how to manage psychiatric medication side effects, and practical ways to eat well on a tight budget. Complete with compassionate tools for emotional eating and customizable, non-restrictive mapping, this book meets you wherever you are.

Food = Mood is not a diet; it is an invitation to rebuild safety and comfort at your table, one steady meal at a time.

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Children and Spiritual Distress

A Developmentally Sensitive Guide for Families, Nurses, Mental Health Professionals, and Care Teams

First Edition · 2026 · Available on Amazon

When serious illness, trauma, or profound loss strikes a young life, children grapple with questions that medicine alone cannot answer: Why me? Am I still loved? Where is hope?

Too often, a child's existential suffering is overlooked or mistaken for psychiatric pathology. In Children and Spiritual Distress, Julie Renee delivers an indispensable, developmentally sensitive roadmap for clinicians, chaplains, educators, and families striving to meet youth in their deepest moments of vulnerability.

Blending trauma-informed clinical acumen with profound compassion, Julie Renee introduces transformative tools like the CARE Framework and the SPIRIT Pathway. Readers will discover practical assessment strategies using play, nonverbal narrative, and art, specifically tailored for neurodivergent and medically complex youth. From navigating pediatric palliative care to honoring grief and family traditions, this guide emphasizes the child's autonomous voice while maintaining rigorous ethical boundaries.

Both a pioneering clinical manual and a compassionate sanctuary for caregivers, this book equips you with the language, presence, and practical interventions needed to nurture a child's meaning, identity, and sacred resilience.

Copyright © 2026 Julie-Renee.org™ LLC. All rights reserved. First Edition: 2026.

This book provides helpful information on the subjects discussed. It is not intended to replace professional medical, psychological, or pastoral counsel. The case studies are composites; names, identifying characteristics, and personal details have been altered to protect patient privacy.

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AuDHD in Adulthood

A neuroaffirming adult guide to Autism, ADHD, and living as both

First Edition · 2026 · Available on Amazon

You can need a plan and still be unable to follow it. You can crave quiet and still chase stimulation. That is not failure. That is AuDHD.

For decades, clinicians were taught that autism and ADHD could not coexist. Adults—especially women, gender-diverse people, and those who learned to mask—were left with burnout, mislabels, and advice that never quite fit. AuDHD in Adulthood names the dual profile with clarity and care.

Julie Renee weaves diagnostics, neuroscience, and real-world functioning into a practical, evidence-informed map: sensory and interoceptive differences, emotional dysregulation, comprehensive assessment, careful differential diagnosis, and a multimodal path through medication, adapted therapy, occupational support, and everyday coaching. She addresses camouflaging, the double-empathy problem, work and school accommodations, money, intimacy, and recovery from autistic and ADHD burnout.

This is not a demand to become someone else. It is a guide to building a sustainable operating manual for a nervous system that is both—and fully worthy of support.

Copyright © 2026 Julie-Renee.org™. All rights reserved.

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Latido en el SilencioSobreviviendo al TEPT complejo y a múltiples LCT: La historia de resiliencia y sanación de una enfermera

Pulse in the Silence

Surviving Complex PTSD and Multiple TBIs: A Nurse’s Story of Resilience and Healing

First Edition · 2026

Behind hospital doors, Registered Nurse Julie Renee was dedicated to saving lives in acute crisis. Behind closed doors at home, she was fighting to survive her own.

In this searingly candid memoir, Julie exposes the hidden reality of navigating complex PTSD, multiple traumatic brain injuries, and severe domestic abuse while wearing the scrubs of a healthcare provider. Balancing concussive trauma, autonomic dysregulation, and debilitating chronic pain in secret, she continued to deliver compassionate care to the critically ill every single day.

Pulse in the Silence bridges raw lived experience with medical insight. Julie confronts the institutional blind spots around neurological recovery and trauma-induced neurocognitive changes, offering practical self-regulation tools and grounding strategies for fellow survivors and healthcare professionals alike.

Grounded in unshakeable faith and relentless honesty, this memoir is a testament to the power of resilience—proving that healing and renewal are possible after even the darkest trauma.

Copyright © 2026 Julie-Renee.org™. All rights reserved.

The Shadow Sisters Series

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Hermanas de SombrasNavegando por la niebla del trauma y la disociación

Shadow Sisters

Navigating the Fog of Trauma and Dissociation

First Edition · 2026

What happens when a child must create an internal sanctuary just to survive her own home?

Growing up in Richmond, Virginia, Julie Renee experienced a childhood fractured by chronic instability, intergenerational strain, and quiet adversity. Unable to escape the rising tides of domestic distress, she discovered creative ways to survive—learning to split off from pain, retreat into dissociative coping mechanisms, and nurture an innate, hidden resilience.

Shadow Sisters is both a moving personal memoir and an empowering guide to nervous system healing. Through vivid storytelling interwoven with practical psychoeducation, Julie explores the profound impact of Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) and deconstructs survival strategies like the freeze response and emotional numbing.

More than a reflection on surviving difficult early years, this transformative book reframes childhood defenses not as defects, but as brilliant acts of self-preservation. Featuring reflective somatic practices, boundary frameworks, and trauma-informed insights, Shadow Sisters offers adult survivors a compassionate roadmap toward self-forgiveness, grounding, and lasting emotional freedom.

Copyright © 2026 Julie-Renee.org. All rights reserved.

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Hermanas de las SombrasLa princesa intermedia

Shadow Sisters: The Princess in Between

First Edition · 2026

Surviving childhood chaos is only the first hurdle. Stepping into young adulthood brings a whole new battlefield: broken attachment patterns, chronic people-pleasing, toxic workplaces, and the exhaustion of living in survival mode.

In Shadow Sisters: The Princess in Between, Julie Renee offers a transformative guide for adult survivors of developmental trauma. Weaving profound personal experience with clinical polyvagal theory, this groundbreaking book explores how early relational terror echoes across romance, career, and physical health.

Discover the profound, restorative power of interspecies co-regulation—the lifesaving bond with animals that teaches our nervous systems true safety when humans fail. Through practical somatic grounding exercises, vagal toning tools, and boundary scripts, you will learn to dismantle automatic appeasement defenses and replace hyper-independence with grounded sovereignty.

Compassionate, evidence-based, and deeply validating, this book equips you to break the cycle of self-abandonment, reclaim your nervous system, and cultivate lasting resilience.

Copyright © 2026 Julie-Renee.org™. All rights reserved.

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Hermanas de la SombraCómo sobrellevar el agotamiento del cuidador, el trauma generacional y el camino hacia la resiliencia

Shadow Sisters

Navigating Caregiver Burnout, Generational Trauma, and the Path to Resilience

First Edition · 2026

Two days after graduating high school, Julie boarded a flight out of Maine with a single suitcase, leaving the northern wilderness behind for the Monument City. At just eighteen, she stepped into the demanding role of full-time caregiver for her aging grandparents, immersing herself in years of profound devotion, chronic illness, and imminent loss.

Yet her journey into the complexities of human resilience did not end there. Living alongside extended family in Virginia and witnessing the enduring psychological wounds carried by combat veterans, Julie observed the deep imprint of trauma across generations.

In this powerful third installment of the Shadow Sisters series, memoir converges with clinical insight. Julie Renee weaves vulnerable lived experience with transformative mental health frameworks, unpacks the neurobiology of compassion fatigue, and offers somatic grounding tools for sustainable recovery.

Shadow Sisters is an essential roadmap for caregivers, trauma survivors, and healthcare professionals seeking hope, endurance, and profound inner healing.

Copyright © 2026 Julie-Renee.org™. All rights reserved.

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Hermanas de las SombrasSobrevivir al terror doméstico, la traición institucional y la lucha por recuperar mi vida

Shadow Sisters

Surviving Domestic Terror, Institutional Betrayal, and the Fight to Reclaim My Life

First Edition · 2026

Survival begins where the silence ends.

As the fourth book in the Shadow Sisters series, this powerful installment continues the journey of truth, healing, and resilience.

When Julie Renee entered her marriage, she stepped into an escalating nightmare of coercive control, physical violence, and terrifying ambushes. The violence reached a harrowing peak when her abuser pulled the trigger of a 12-gauge shotgun aimed at her head—unaware she had secretly unloaded it days before. In retaliation for her escape plans, he committed an unspeakable act of vengeance against her beloved yearling filly, Honey.

Yet the terror did not stop at her doorstep. When corrupt local networks suppressed criminal arrest warrants, Julie faced the devastating reality of institutional betrayal, leaving her to navigate survival entirely alone.

In Shadow Sisters, Julie weaves raw lived experience with groundbreaking insights into trauma recovery, nervous system regulation, and animal-inclusive safety planning. This memoir and clinical guide unpacks the neurological roots of hypervigilance, somatic trauma triggers, and systemic corruption, offering survivors a vital roadmap for reclaiming their voice, autonomy, and sanctuary.

Raw, empowering, and profoundly practical, Shadow Sisters is an essential lifeline for anyone rebuilding their life from the ashes of domestic abuse.

Copyright © 2026 Julie-Renee.org™. All rights reserved.

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